pennylane: the eternal optimist

Saturday, July 08, 2006

letting go

we haven't talked, for months i think. and considering it's been 3 years since we last saw each other, it always amazes me how profound an effect he still has on me everytime we do get to communicate. i told him how i'm handling things now, what major decisions i have done the past months and how it has changed my life. he understands, i know he will. and he's happy for me. he's fine as well, with how things are going for him, for them. and again, we agreed...that this is how things should be between us. it still hurts, knowing you can never have that person you love. that despite loving each other & being there for each other & dreaming of a life together...that despite trying to conquer all odds, it still is never meant to be.

"thank you for being who you are in my life...now we both know where we are and where we should be...i know we'll both treasure what we had...and that we will always be here for each other no matter what...

who knows...maybe during our next life, we'll finally be together...for now, we'll just hold that memory in our hearts..."